i dont need your control

i wish i had those blades.
but never mind
clearly no one
not NO ONE
trusts me anymore.

just because i want help
doesnt mean i want your fucking control.

i want my blades back, i want my stanley knives back.
i want them back right now.

if need be ill get some others
you know that was never an issue
im just so pissed again again and again
that everytime i go for them
i keep on getting this block,
this ridiculous reminder that i no longer
govern even my own life.

yeah well thats changing.

time on my own made me realise i can adapt to living without you.
it may be hard but ill live. its what ive always done,
contrary to your controlling beliefs.